hmmm.

so today was great, but it seems that I keep getting more and more confused about what to do and how to do it. I know that I "can" draw when I see it in my head or something. Even still, I'm lacking all that knowledge of what goes where and how come that shadow does this and almost everything dealing with color. Evertime I think I'm making any headway I manage to open a whole nother door to even more questions and the complexity of the new questions leaves me buying books, starring at people and getting very, very frustrated.

I know I have to keep going, simply because this is who I am. I draw and paint and everything that comes with it. I can't live without it. The only thing that still completely confuses me is whether or not it will drive me mad and I won't make it. Everytime I think that I try to put it out of my mind and keep going. I can only handle so many "what if" and "why" thoughts in one day.

so that's enough of that, I just needed to think, thank you blog.